‘Cause every little thing they gonna be alright …”
Sorry for the delay in posting. Read below for the promised Sunday post!
The first night back was really tough. I was spoiled by the sounds of the waves lulling me into a comforting sleep. I also miss naps. Naps are the best, aren’t they? The thing about the way I think about naps right now is that they are my body’s way of telling me to slow down and take care of myself. So, though I don’t nap often, I am starting to listen to my inner voice more often.
But, I digress. Two songs kept playing on a loop during my time in Grenada: Feeling Good by Nina Simone and Three Little Birds by Bob Marley. While I got ready for this trip, I kept thinking it would be the perfect opportunity to unplug and recharge, which I desperately needed to do. I challenged myself to read some of the books that I haven’t had a chance to get to (see my reading list below) and to use the time to just be. I’ve realized lately that I am just tired all the time. Weekends haven’t been enough of a bread from the everyday grind. There’s errands and laundry and other things that take away from me time.
The unplug part happened from the get-go. This is Grenada’s rainy season and due to some bouts of heavy rain, the internet was down where we were staying. I can’t begin to explain how great that was for me. The internet had only just begun for me as I was in high school. It was all about AOL/Aim and dial-up. I had already survived without it, but for my youngest brother, who grew up with the internet and social media in full-swing, it was tough.
I told you the story about almost losing my flip-flop in the ocean (click here for The Grenadine Diaries: Surreal to read it). I realized that I was truly happy and carefree in that moment. The whole trip since then, I thought about the last time I felt that way. I couldn’t recall much in recent years. I want to be more like that. I made a promise to myself to find ways to brush things off and let go. Not an easy feat, but I’m a work in progress.
Grenada was a lot and did a lot of things for me. I reconnected with myself and decided that I’m a pretty cool chick and I don’t need to change. I do, however, need to be more in tune with my needs and listen when my body is telling me I’m doing too much. Just like it’s never too late to learn, it’s never too late to better yourself for you. Taking the time to take care of myself is just the first step in learning to love myself and to change for the better. It’s all about me, baby!
Thanks for joining me on this journey. I’m in Rhode Island on a mini-road trip with a good friend. Follow me on Instagram for pictures. I’ll post about my trip on Thursday. And finally, as promised, here is my Grenada reading list: